Deliverance: A Little Bit About Me

Hello Blogging World! God is so good to give me the chance to reach people through blogging! This is my second blog attempt and I am so glad that the spirit has lead me to do this again. I had wanted to start this blog before the end of December and even while I was a home in Birmingham (205!) before the new year but everything that could happen, happened. The computer wasn't working right, I couldn't find my old blog to transfer things, and I had a hard time coming up with a name for the blog. Needless to say, it was God's way of saying it wasn't time yet. Thankfully I just heard Him say today, Blog! So here I am.

So let's dive right in. I was asked about my testimony and I though wow. Not a lot of people know how I came to Christ or what brought me to Him. I'll start from the end and work my way to the beginning. Recently I joined my church Gulf Coast Christian Center. I had heard God tell me to join for a while but I was a little hesitant because I am not sure how long I will be in Mobile since I am here for school. But a few Sundays ago, God tugged at my heart to join. I love my church family! So many children, teens, young adults, and adults on FIRE for God and diligently doing His will. 

This past weekend we had a shut in where we fasted all day Saturday. This was not my first fast (a blog I will have to do separately about my FIRST fast) but this fast was different. We were preparing for the new year! We had a lesson on deliverance. I had never heard anything about it before and it was my first time hearing about it but I it wasn't by chance that I was there learning about it. After hearing the lesson I needed to be delivered from demons that had planted themselves inside of me from generation curses to things that came in by opening those spiritual doors. We had a group deliverance session but nothing broke inside of me. I wanted to let go of everything that was not of God but it was just something that wouldn't break. After this we had the opportunity to break a brick with a sledge hammer. The objective was to visualize what it that we wanted to break inside of us. For me, the brick  represented the wall that was hindering me from being delivered from the demons that were inside of me. That was only the begin. Then we had the opportunity to write down some things that we needed to break inside of us on a clay pot and we were able to break it with hammer as well. Not only were we able to break somethings but we were also able to bury the remains of brick and clay. Although some things were broken inside of me, I still needed more.

I will never forget December 31, 2012 because it is my Spiritual Birthday!! On that day any demon that had it hold on me no longer lives inside of me. The devil fought so hard but he DID NOT win! I came to my deliverance session with my list of things inside of me that did not belong. The session brought about me answering questions that were uncomfortable and learning about this inside of me that I never knew were there. When I tell you I felt so free, man FREEDOM!!!  I knew I couldn't go into the new year harboring those demons inside of me.

Inside of me was the spirit of hurt, lying, religion, lust, harlotry, homosexuality, masturbation, pornography, murder, schizophrenia/split personality, loneliness, suicide, self-hatred, molestation, unforgiveness....and maybe some other things that I can't remember of think of but man I was messed up! I needed to receive salvation all over again because I questioned if I was going to heaven. All the years of feeling like I wasn't good enough and that I was worthless. The scares of me being a cutter and wanting to end my life were still there. I can remember hating that I was so different and I wanted to badly to fit in and hated myself for taller, bigger, whatever else compared to everyone else. You see the devil had my mind and I went into a vicious cycle of wanting to be accepted. You see even when I lost my virginity it was because I fell for the "well everyone is doing it". Countless times in my life I fell for the lies of the devil and that day during the deliverance session the Holy Spirit tore everything down in me and laid down the foundation that I was missing. The devil even told during my deliverance session that he wanted me back. But you see he couldn't have me! I was not longer his slave, no longer living for him!!!! I was God and I had invited Him into my heart and now I know! I know where I am going when I die. I know who I serve and who my life belongs to. I know where Jesus is and He is in my heart!

Someone asked me how long have I been saved. I answered since March 2012 but honestly, I felt saved all over again! So how long have I been saved? December 31, 2012 before the new year!!!

I pray that you don't look at this blog that she is just crazy talking about demons but this is real! There are things inside of that which don't belong and we must speak and tell it to GO! Has the devil tried to attack my mind since then? Yes! But he can never have me back, I belong to God!

I'm going to put a link here of my first blog where I talked about my testimony but this my permanent blog site!

http://pearloftransparency.blog.com/2012/05/22/being-transparent-my-life-begins/

Peace, Love, Blessings! Make Sure You Leave A Comment!!


Amber Roquelle