Secret Adulterer

Some people's sins are shown more easily than others. Some people don't care while others want to portray themselves as the good girl or the good guy or the one who is quiet or who is really nice. Whatever the characteristic it may be there are only a few people who know the real them and even then they probably only know parts of who they are. Everyone is pretty much familiar with whatever comes to the dark comes to the light. Well some people's mess or secret are never exposed but I will exposed mine.

As a new creature in Christ I still struggled with a lot of things from my past like most of us do. We love Christ and this new found freedom but often times we fail to live out that freedom because we willingly chain ourselves back to our sin and that what I did. I was the lady of the night in so many different ways. Although it wasn't necessarily sex, I still watched explicit content (porn, movies that were highly sexual), listened to explicit music, read books that contain explicit content, over ate what I wanted, lied about school, and was just overall lazy. I was a secretly adulterous woman.


Now before you go judging my life and what I use to do I want to express to you why God laid this on my heart; to expose the enemy. Satan will always tell you not to say that in front of your "Christian" friends or not to go to any religious authority for help because of embarrassment or pride but in order to be free we must expose the enemy while using discernment. Anyways...


While I was reading Hosea, it truly broke my heart. (Take the time to read it. It one of those small books of the bible and won't take time at all) God really wrecked me and caused me to look at my life and how I treated my husband Christ. I was submitting myself to other things before and share my intimate relationship with other things and people before Him.

Christ longs for us and often times portrays that of Hosea when we go out into the world and get caught up in the wrong crowd or the wrong things. Though we are married to Christ, as followers of Christ, when we seek other things for fulfillment or put other people before Christ and His standards we are like that of an adulterous person giving away of ourselves what belongs to God.


I continued to read Hosea of how God's chosen people were so wicked and had turned so far away from Him that He called them not His people. God was so upset that He even said He will show them no more mercy. Whew! I don't know about you but that shook me to my core!!

We can get so deep into desires that are not from God and we forget who we are don't share the characteristics of Christ but the characteristics of the world. Although we may be going to church on Sunday, reading the word, going to that place of intimacy in worship, we are still missing the key factor which is an intimate relationship solely with God and uninterrupted by people, things that do not glorify Him.

But like Hosea, God is a forgiving and loving God. His love for us in unconditional and even when we do a 180 away from Him, He will still be there with His hand outstretched to take us back in.

I pray that you come to know the error of your ways like I did and that you feel such an urgency and that the passage of Hosea burdens your heart and that God revels to you what you have been putting before Him. 


Peace, Love, and Blessings!